| Letter to My Mistress |
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We are at a point just before marriage, much after the start of orgasm denial.., on the edge of something more.
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i think You feel cheated when my passionate expressions of love for You subside into a still reliable but less intoxicating form of affection. i think that “just compatibility” is insufficient for You, (and for me). Are we considering an experiment in consensual, erotic slavery?
Perhaps what You’re doing to me (intentionally, and i encourage it) creates so much tension between us (and a kind of suffering for me) that it stokes my desire for You to an extreme, which is enormously beneficial for You and exciting for me. …And where does this lead? It leads to Obedience to Your Will and Desires. Obedience to You would alone determine what is right and what is wrong, as my will is replaced by Yours. When a slave begins to operate too much, on his own without instruction to do so, to entertain questions or to engage in significant behaviors outside the realm of obedience, the Mistress/Master may not be able to protect her/his slave. It is only a slave’s obedience that enables a Mistress/Master to control and, therefore protect, a slave against the most damaging threat possible, the slave’s thoughts. … the emotional dangers within the slave’s mind are the ones that can seriously challenge the Mistress/Master’s authority and, therefore, the relationship itself. (pp. 81-82, Guy Baldwin, Slavecraft.
i’d like to explore a life in which You limit my sexual expression to an extreme, in which You demand (and receive) detailed disclosure about anything You want and in which purchases, meetings, and activities, are all subject to Your scrutiny and veto, …and in which, Your needs always come first and I offer You respect, deference, and absolute, unquestioning acquiescence.
Except when i would be otherwise occupied with You or doing “work,” You would keep me handcuffed and blindfolded. Movies would be for You to enjoy, while i am kept focused on You, positioned to fixate on Your legs and crotch and breasts in a cravat,.
i would make and serve You breakfast. Dinner would be prepared for You. Sometimes You would allow me to join You, other times pleasure You under the table, other times, eat Your leftovers.
You would control all finances; i would receive a weekly cash allowance.
Sex would occur to satisfy Your needs. Additionally You would use oral sex, the pantyhood, and Your breasts to instill in Your slave a visceral and subservient attachment to You, also to promote and maintain it.
You would encourage acts of worship, …kissing of Your feet, massaging of Your feet and legs, perhaps bowing before You when entering or leaving Your presence. Additionally, whenever You entered the house, i would kneel before You, naked and wearing handcuffs (if only briefly), providing a kiss and tongue on Your vulva. ...Your slave in training. |
